BAH


I'm frustrated >

I wanna draw. But I can't. Not in this environment, it's too cold, the light sucks, and I have no privacy, unless I wanna freeze my ass off upstairs -_-"

I can't draw or paint with an audiance. By which I mean someone standing over my shoulder watching me and constantly asking 'what are you doing?' because I couldn't answer them anyway, they wouldn't know what I was talking about. And on top of that, my dog constantly offering me his paw so I'll play ball with him. I can't turn down those puppy eyes!

I tried explaining to my ex-Art teacher that I can only truly draw with a passion if I'm in the right mood, otherwise I'll get bored, or keep making mistakes and going over it a million times, I'll just frustrate myself and give up (not a good practice, I know). But if I'm in the perfect mood, with no pressure or distractions I can work for hours and hours on end and it's a wonderful feeling.
But he told me that's nonsense, that you should draw every chance you get, no matter what your mood, you just have to do it, and that's that.

Perhaps that's how he works but, that seems more like a job than a passion to me.

I don't know. I'm annoyed at myself. I haven't done anything much at all since I finished school, art wise. Sure I worked with polly a bit with paper making, but apart from that I have a couple paintings and a handful of drawings. I just...I never seem to have time to do anything these days. And when I do have time, I don't have space. Like this morning i was in the mood to draw, i was chill and i had my music in th living room, when my mam walks in and turns the tv on -_-"

Maybe I'm too fussy. I don't know but I just can't work like that. It most likely will work against me for the rest of my life lol. Just wish I had my own place.

Ugh.

There she goes with the Tv again. we have one in the other room!!!! why not use that one?? ¬_¬


I'm just fed up today.