I'm a little bit sad at the moment, i guess. I dunno I was just thinking about a really strong friendship that I had with some one for like 11 years, thats just over half my life span.
And for some reason, I don't know what, the friendship gradually faded to well....nothing.

She was my Best friend, might as well have been sisters, we practically grew up in each others houses. We'd been through so much together.

But for some reason she just got distant. And that distance grew to the point where we are now, we never see each other, we never talk or text.
When I try to make contact she just doesnt seem interested so I guess I just gave up trying one day.


But you know, I really miss her. We had so much fun, I could talk to her about anything and visa versa. All we did was laugh all the time.

I spose I've been so busy lately that it hasn't crossed my mind in a while.
I just happened across her facebook profile (ugh, facebook) and I realised how much I miss her.

Strange how things go, I mean everyone always said when you finish school nobody stays in contact, but we always said that would never happen to us.

I miss having a wider circle of friends, I hardly see anyone anymore from my school friends.

Guess I feel a bit lonely that way sometimes. I know I moved from my home town, and most of them are still there but its not that far away...

Of course, I live with one of my best friends, and thats awesome. To be honest sometimes it feels like shes the only real friend I have. And vinny of course means the world to me, I can talk to him about anything and he's always there for me to help me and make me smile. And he really does.
Sometimes I don't think he could fathom how much he means to me, it's too much for me to even start to describe. I just know if I didn't have him, I would be so lost right now. He keeps me on safe ground.

As regards my old friends...so much of what they were (and possibly still are) was so fake.
One guy who was like my best friend at one stage has just turned into a complete jerk. I wish I knew why, and a part of me thinks he knows what he's turned into.
It seems a lot of them have the attitude that their too good to hang out with me and the girls and just have fun...again, I couldnt say why.
Perhaps we grew apart for a reason.

All the same, I wish I didn't feel so left out at times.

It sucks.